Esther Bennington

LINKIN PARK

MUSE

GREEN DAY

WOODKID

TWENTY ONE PILOTS

NIRVANA

do you remember? those nights where we cuddled, do you remember? you were so nice, smiling and shining eyes.. i loved you. do you remember that time we went to the mall? you were so cool, lovely and protective. and then it happens, do you remember? i will never forget. that time i saw you pulling her hair while you were fuckin'. it was horrible, you ware so drunk and when you saw me you had that cold eyes, they were not shining anymore. do you remember what you said when i started crying? You smirked and said that i was not worthy. my most powerful fear, to be not worthy. and when i fuckin' asked you why you did this and if you still love me, you laugh! you fuckin' laugh! do you remember what you said? i perfectly do : "i don't love you, i've never loved you, you're just not worthy!" and now, i can't breathe every fuckin' second of my life, because i think about you, about us every second. i have anxiety, and i am scared of boys. do you realize you just ruined my life? just because i was not worthy.. i hate you.

i still love you.

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU.

i fuckin' love you.